Tomorrow's Plans

My mind is very busy these days.

I don't quite feel like my happy, care-free self. Even people that don't know me very well are asking me lately if I'm doing alright. I didn't realize my stress level was that obvious. Now I feel very self-conscious.

Oh I know I'm stressed. If Mike gets this job tomorrow we will be moving again. I just cannot fathom another move and so soon!! We moved just 6 months ago!!

I love the feeling of being organized and everything has a place and is in its place. To move is the very opposite of that feeling. It's so much work and I hate the thought of uprooting our lives again.

I got online and searched for properties to rent or buy at what could be our next location. That helped relieve some of my anxiety. I love to decorate and organize so a new place gives me that to look forward to. Plus, another place that possibly could cushion our desirable lifestyle better is hopeful.

I'm excited for Mike if he gets this job. It would be the first job he has had that he will truly be using his degree full force and the hours will give us a chance to have a regular family work week.

There's definitely a lot of positives. (*pause*) I just don't want to move again (*spoken in a whiny tone*).

I have made a very good friend here and I don't want to move away from her. I feel like I'm about six years old when I say that. She's very dear to me. It's been a long time since I have had a tangible girlfriend to hang out with like her. This year has been packed full of emotions for me and having her to talk to has been so healing. She is an amazing listener and has such helpful things to say. I will miss having her just a short drive down the road from me.

So tomorrow is a big day!! We really hope an attractive job offer is given. If it is I will first thank God for it, then I will deeply pray for the strength and energy to endure another move!!